That’s that. Another year is over and as I look back on my 2013 goals I realized that I kinda sucked at them. Here is what I was ambitious enough to set as goals:
1. Train for, and hopefully run in, my second marathon. I want to run the Glass City Marathon on April 28, this was my very first (and thus far, only) marathon and I would like to complete it again without the knee pain and having to walk for half of it. I feel that if I train the right way and not skip out on half of my long runs like I *may* have done in 2012 I’ll beat my time by leaps and bounds! I did NOT run my second marathon in 2013. My knee surgery in October 2012 was still causing long run knee pain, so I took it easy in 2013.
2. Be a better friend. I have had a hard time over the last few years with being a good friend. Ask any of the people who I would call my friends the last time I spoke to them, or hung out with them. My name is Amanda and I am a horrible friend to keep. I am horrible at planning time to see my friends, returning calls and texts. I am horrible to make plans with because something always changes. In reality, I am talking to you, Michele. I feel as though I have neglected my friendship with you and that saddens me in so many ways. I have been through so much in the 10 years that we have known each other and I have never given you the attention and support that you deserve. I hope I can be a better friend to you in 2013. Yup, yup, yup. Another thing I didn’t really do at all. I can’t really tell you the last time I saw the majority of my friends. I seriously need to get out more.
3. Be a better wife. I need to work better as a team with Jeff in all aspects of our marriage, including the kids, the dog, the house, bills and everything else that goes into a marriage. I am more of a do it myself kinda person, but that isn’t how a good marriage works so I need to talk to Jeff with all of my wants and needs and issues in our marriage, handling them myself won’t do any good. No marriage is without its issues for sure. Our issues just need to be worked through.
4. Attempt to get my medications in check. My bipolar is slowly getting under control and more manageable. I was more depressed than manic when I was off of meds so we have the depression licked compared to what it used to be but I know there are times where I can still get manic at the drop of a hat and I don’t listen to anyone when they try to calm me down. Jeff and I recently finished season 2 of Homeland on Showtime and that show has opened my eyes to what a person with bipolar looks like from the outside, I know what they feel like but I had never witnessed someone going through symptoms. It was amazing. It was scary. It was heartbreaking. But I also felt relieved. I was relieved that other people go through what I do on a daily basis. I finally realized that meds and a good support system are the only things that are keeping me from a year long depression and a manic spending spree. Once again, I rely on Jeff more than any husband should have to put up with and he continues to be amazing every step of the way. I really lucked out with him, I count my blessings each time I look at him. Oh, yeah, back to the point of managing my meds, I am experiencing a side effect with one med that I am not sure I can live with for the rest of my life, so I will continue to be open with my doctor so we can find the best option for me regarding treatment. At least this was a win for me! My bipolar meds are doing a great job for me. I feel so much better each day and I am having less and less huge mood swings. Of course, it is always a work in progress, but at least for now, I feel good.
5. Pull it together. I need to get back to the cleaning and organizational systems that help to keep me sane. I know it is something where I just have to do it, but man have I been slacking on keeping things looking presentable. Don’t put it down, put it away is one of my favorite sayings and will be permanently tattoo’d on my hand someday I think just to keep me from dumping stuff all over the place. This has gotten better. Not perfect, but it never will be of course. I have a new cleaning checklist for the week/month/year that has helped.
6. I will get down to my goal weight of 115-120 and I will maintain said goal weight for the remainder of the year. I am only 11-16 pounds away from my goal range and I would give up so many things if it meant that I would drop those 11 pounds in a hurry, but I know that true weight loss doesn’t work like that and if I do this the healthy way it will come off around 2 pounds per week. Which puts me at my goal weight sometime in the beginning of February. That is, with plenty of dedication. Ah, the goal weight. I am only 4 pounds over the high end of my goal weight range, so I’ll take that for a win, too. I need to continue to focus on what I want and why I want it, instead of eating half of a container of peppermint ice cream. Not that I would do that.
I guess a few goals met is better than none!
Did you meet your 2013 goals?